Reputation.

P.S- This is just a poem. Don't take the meaning tooo seriously pls. Thanks. 🚫Been living on a broken foundation. Should have realised that from your bad reputation. All those words made you in my eyes different. Stupid of me to fall for words never truly meant. But now I'll see you as danger, I'll see you as a stranger. Boy you dream bout me dead, But honey, you gonna see me blood red, that one shot you'll be forever on your bed, then later on don't tell me this all I haven't said. Boy in seconds I turn from pitch black to red. I'm now all red, escape before you require meds, cuz boy, I'm now all red.... You've been warned, better be prepared.🚫

🍂 Autumn leaves all on the ground. Walking all along the crackling sound. The cool breeze spreading red and yellow leaves as a reminder, that August has come back yet again this year. Each fallen leaf reminds me on time passing by, yet me never daring to say the first hi. The now all colourful ground, letting me go off my duties. Cuz it reminds me of your beauty. Cool breeze lingering as a souvenir, on all the desires of wanting you near. And the fresh smell due to the entrance of a new season, boosts up purpose to my hopeless reason. (to stay) Have grown older again now, but I still fall in love. (with you) The craze of wanting this time to be special for you, due to this very crazy love for you, making me want you with me the entire August, but I’m too afraid to ask you to be my first. So I’ll just let you go though my love for you. I’ll just remind myself of you through autumn surrounding me, just for you... 🍂

In a crowded room yet feeling all locked up. Mixed emotions drowning me down, so further drowning myself by emptying the contains of my cup. Heart feeling heavy just like my gown. Cuz there you are right there, partying like nothing ever went wrong. Our hearts know my behaviour was unfair, making my chest heave for so long. Want to take a step ahead and talk out, yet I’d rather run away. Filled with complete doubt, yet I want to talk out right away. Dying with regret. My helpless eyes all on you. Wanting to apologise on all the times but the suddenly visible crowd’s making me fret. No more can I stay in here with you. I just regret on every time I was hurtful, but guess I’ll have to live with it cuz no more will I see you pitiful....